super senses

noise
a sound by definition
a crux to lean upon

me
a singular organism
cell cell
celebrate freedom

expression and
feeling

stumble
fall
the action cost it all

your trip
it made me get a grip

rhymes unnecessary

eyes that cut and bruise

change coming fast

i have officially accepted my offer of admission from UCLA. and yes, this is indeed my final answer. i feel like moving to LA is a real change i need and ucla is an amazing school with loads of clubs and things to do. and the campus is the most amazinggggg thing ive ever seen.

although i am scared shitless i am also excited. i feel this is the change i need and itll be the real step i need into becoming a self sufficient adult.

i am worried about money and not having any friends but im sure itll work out. i guess money is the main concern. my parents can only pay my car bill while im gone so i gotta figure out how to pay rent and food when i dont have a job.... i kno im gettting financial aid but i dont know how much yet and i know my gparents r gunna help but i dont kno how much they will be able to either. i guess i could always take out a loan, but thats not something i wanna do.

the thing i hate most is planning and worrying. once im in my new place and figure out the money issue ill be fine. i just hope im not super lonely. and winning the lottery may be nice.

unseen roots

noise
a sound by definition
a crux to lean upon

me
a singular organism
cell cell
celebrate freedom

expression and
feeling

stumble
fall
the action cost it all

your trip
it made me get a grip

rhymes unnecessary

eyes that cut and bruise

cheese

i'm not nice
i say it with a smile
and the highest pitch i can manage
----->
halloweens all year round for this hypocrite

didn't think it could get any darker? guess again

finally allowing myself to shed the tears


my mind wanders into realms of self inflicted injuries

unearthed part2 2010

she told me to suck it
i told her to fuck it
whatsitmatteranyway

unearthed 2010

i banged my head on that ridiculous metaphor of a wall
it took awhile but one day i began to see clear
what is it they call these floating dots in my vision again?

i find so many words to be frustrating
and habits seem to be harder than ever to break
i smile and laugh
and indeed i am

id love to talk in circles for years for it gives me great pleasure
but sometimes i wonder if time is running out
then i slap myself for such foolish thoughts as that
because how could it be running out
when time is only beginning
begging to begin for me

never there

a lack of satisfaction
and an abundance of disappointment has taught me everything
and by everything i mean almost nothing

skipskip frolic, slip