i'm cold

imagery

my painted finger seeks true north
a heavy arrow, leading me up the path

burdens i willingly bare
smiling my bloody grin

i am nothing
seeking elusive everything

huge steps forward,
all the while dragging my booted feet.

look at this

freakin sweet candle i got at target.

sober

i've been sober for two months now.

since my accident the only alcohol i've had at all is a small glass of champagne (which i couldn't finish) a couple of days ago. my mum gave me a bottle cuz she knows that i like champagne. i probably could have finished my glass if i had orange juice, but it had expired.. opps! luckily garrick was still here and he had no problem finishing the bottle off! ha.

anyway, i feel quite proud of myself. i guess i never noticed how much i relied on alcohol before. and i feel healthier and better about myself now. altho my main diet consists of spaghetti o's and nature valley bars... but thats college life for ya!

staring at the ceiling

the earth moves beneath my feet,
this scratch i wish was deep