unearthed part2 2010

she told me to suck it
i told her to fuck it
whatsitmatteranyway

unearthed 2010

i banged my head on that ridiculous metaphor of a wall
it took awhile but one day i began to see clear
what is it they call these floating dots in my vision again?

i find so many words to be frustrating
and habits seem to be harder than ever to break
i smile and laugh
and indeed i am

id love to talk in circles for years for it gives me great pleasure
but sometimes i wonder if time is running out
then i slap myself for such foolish thoughts as that
because how could it be running out
when time is only beginning
begging to begin for me

never there

a lack of satisfaction
and an abundance of disappointment has taught me everything
and by everything i mean almost nothing

skipskip frolic, slip

a novel by moi

this is the start of something that may turn out to be a novel by me.

"Another day, ....another..penny?" Charlie's foot fell with some finality on the top step of her parent's front porch. As her foot hit the hard cool pavement it triggered a momentary slowed consciousness. In quick succession she contemplated her situation; the lack of money, self esteem/ respect, and the all together stagnant position of her so called life.
With a somewhat deflated mood she walked to her car. As she was fumbling with the key (yes, she unlocked her car the old fashioned way. A habit she could never fully explain) she thought about how buying this new car had been her biggest mistake. After all, her main issues with money revolved around her inescapable car payment. If she was in a particularly bad mood she could blame the fact that she was almost 23 and still living at home on the $300 a month she paid in bills.

a race

a heart that races for hours

its end was met as soon as she drove away
-there remained a hole-

isn't it funny to finally understand what empty means

deepest

echoes
seemingly meaningless

the reverberations
i never fail to notice

trying to smile
{a twisted version appears}

finally a dark corridor to wander

woah

people actually commented on my last post. i feel... weird?

thank you for saying nice things to me :)



ps. new writings coming soon to a heydontcallmethat blog near you!